Another one bites the dust

She was a Queen fan. I think she would appreciate the title here.

There was another death in TopixTown. This time it was evidently real though. It wasn't faked for someone's self-aggrandizement.

It's almost always sad when someone dies. Angela- this someone- was in her forties and died after a rather brief battle with lung cancer. I think she found out maybe two months ago? Something like that. It was the icing on a really crappy life cake, the diagnosis coming a week after losing her job. It happens every day.

She was a long time poster on the Chicago regs thread and many other message boards. I do recall her boasting about being on the internet longer than anyone else in the world maybe. She really liked the message boards. And, she was pretty good at them.

I fairly liked her even though she twice (that I know of) wished me dead. Honestly, wishing Ferrerman dead is shockingly common on parts of the internet. And, she once volunteered to publicize all my personal info, another common occurrence on the net. Where do I find these people? Oh yeah- Topix!

I guess I grade these imaginary people on a curve, because they are imaginary because it never bothered me that she wished me dead. Why should it? She couldn't actually do anything about it. Just internet bravado.

I also didn't hold her death wishes for me against her because, when she wasn't doing that, she was usually pretty interesting. Not a lot of people on Topix can be that.From the start I was kinda leery of her. Though I was new to the internet, I wasn't at all new to liars and big talkers. Frankly, the way she talked about softball, anal and oral sex, drinking and porn, I thought at first that she was a dude, maybe even a gay dude, pretending to be female. That happens a lot on the internet, Topix in particular. It's a mixed up, jumbled up, shook up world, for sure. When I tended bar though, I knew a lot of real life women who were that bawdy. So, they do happen. When she wasn't posting that kinda stuff, she had a good liberal mind and the sense of right and wrong that goes along with that. And that's really what I prefer to take away from the oblique experience of knowing her.

On the dregs thread, reactions to her demise were as you'd expect on a social media site. Death is a shock even when people are imaginary but, it is obviously less urgent. The grieving process didn't last long.  Imaginary people grieve in their own way. Former posters dropped in to say hello and mention that they were sad but, like a wake it was a lot of socializing. Then everybody goes back to regular posting.

Not a lot of people were happy to see Ferrerman at the virtual wake'. But, ya know-  some of them never are anyway so, what are ya gonna do? You could almost hear them thinking: "You bastard! Redheadwithglasses hated you as much as edog, Sublime and PEllen all rolled up into one!  Why are YOU alive when SHE is dead??!!"

Yikes! Harsh, but, I get that a lot. Some of the most miserable people on earth don't like me. I count that as a blessing, if you're scoring at home.

Rest in peace, Red. 

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As a side note, I have to say that a couple of people reported awakening at 3:30am, the moment of the morning she died. That's really odd, isn't it? Odder still, this Ferrerman awoke that morning. I generally sleep through the night (clear conscience) but that morning got up, went downstairs and took an aspirin. I remember thinking that I should have checked the time but, I did not. Spooky, eh? Why would Angela leave this earth and  awaken me for it? I dunno. Why would she awaken those other two? Maybe I just felt a toothache coming after all....

I shoulda looked at the clock.